The
Tell Tale Heart
By Edgar Allan Poe
True!
--nervous --very, very dreadfully nervous I had been and am; but why will
you say that I am mad? The disease had sharpened my senses --not destroyed
--not dulled them. Above all was the sense of hearing acute. I heard all
things in the heaven and in the earth. I heard many things in hell. How,
then, am I mad? Hearken! and observe how healthily --how calmly I can
tell you the whole story.
It
is impossible to say how first the idea entered my brain; but once conceived,
it haunted me day and night. Object there was none. Passion there was
none. I loved the old man. He had never wronged me. He had never given
me insult. For his gold I had no desire. I think it was his eye! yes,
it was this! He had the eye of a vulture --a pale blue eye, with a film
over it. Whenever it fell upon me, my blood ran cold; and so by degrees
--very gradually --I made up my mind to take the life of the old man,
and thus rid myself of the eye forever.
Now
this is the point. You fancy me mad. Madmen know nothing. But you should
have seen me. You should have seen how wisely I proceeded --with what
caution --with what foresight --with what dissimulation I went to work!
I was never kinder to the old man than during the whole week before I
killed him. And every night, about midnight, I turned the latch of his
door and opened it --oh so gently! And then, when I had made an opening
sufficient for my head, I put in a dark lantern, all closed, closed, that
no light shone out, and then I thrust in my head. Oh, you would have laughed
to see how cunningly I thrust it in! I moved it slowly --very, very slowly,
so that I might not disturb the old man's sleep. It took me an hour to
place my whole head within the opening so far that I could see him as
he lay upon his bed. Ha! would a madman have been so wise as this, And
then, when my head was well in the room, I undid the lantern cautiously-oh,
so cautiously --cautiously (for the hinges creaked) --I undid it just
so much that a single thin ray fell upon the vulture eye. And this I did
for seven long nights --every night just at midnight --but I found the
eye always closed; and so it was impossible to do the work; for it was
not the old man who vexed me, but his Evil Eye. And every morning, when
the day broke, I went boldly into the chamber, and spoke courageously
to him, calling him by name in a hearty tone, and inquiring how he has
passed the night. So you see he would have been a very profound old man,
indeed, to suspect that every night, just at twelve, I looked in upon
him while he slept.
Upon
the eighth night I was more than usually cautious in opening the door.
A watch's minute hand moves more quickly than did mine. Never before that
night had I felt the extent of my own powers --of my sagacity. I could
scarcely contain my feelings of triumph. To think that there I was, opening
the door, little by little, and he not even to dream of my secret deeds
or thoughts. I fairly chuckled at the idea; and perhaps he heard me; for
he moved on the bed suddenly, as if startled. Now you may think that I
drew back --but no. His room was as black as pitch with the thick darkness,
(for the shutters were close fastened, through fear of robbers,) and so
I knew that he could not see the opening of the door, and I kept pushing
it on steadily, steadily. I had my head in, and was about to open the
lantern, when my thumb slipped upon the tin fastening, and the old man
sprang up in bed, crying out --"Who's there?" I kept quite still
and said nothing. For a whole hour I did not move a muscle, and in the
meantime I did not hear him lie down. He was still sitting up in the bed
listening; --just as I have done, night after night, hearkening to the
death watches in the wall.
Presently
I heard a slight groan, and I knew it was the groan of mortal terror.
It was not a groan of pain or of grief --oh, no! --it was the low stifled
sound that arises from the bottom of the soul when overcharged with awe.
I knew the sound well. Many a night, just at midnight, when all the world
slept, it has welled up from my own bosom, deepening, with its dreadful
echo, the terrors that distracted me. I say I knew it well. I knew what
the old man felt, and pitied him, although I chuckled at heart. I knew
that he had been lying awake ever since the first slight noise, when he
had turned in the bed. His fears had been ever since growing upon him.
He had been trying to fancy them causeless, but could not. He had been
saying to himself --"It is nothing but the wind in the chimney --it
is only a mouse crossing the floor," or "It is merely a cricket
which has made a single chirp." Yes, he had been trying to comfort
himself with these suppositions: but he had found all in vain. All in
vain; because Death, in approaching him had stalked with his black shadow
before him, and enveloped the victim. And it was the mournful influence
of the unperceived shadow that caused him to feel --although he neither
saw nor heard --to feel the presence of my head within the room.
When
I had waited a long time, very patiently, without hearing him lie down,
I resolved to open a little --a very, very little crevice in the lantern.
So I opened it --you cannot imagine how stealthily, stealthily --until,
at length a simple dim ray, like the thread of the spider, shot from out
the crevice and fell full upon the vulture eye. It was open --wide, wide
open --and I grew furious as I gazed upon it. I saw it with perfect distinctness
--all a dull blue, with a hideous veil over it that chilled the very marrow
in my bones; but I could see nothing else of the old man's face or person:
for I had directed the ray as if by instinct, precisely upon the damned
spot. And have I not told you that what you mistake for madness is but
over-acuteness of the sense? --now, I say, there came to my ears a low,
dull, quick sound, such as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I knew
that sound well, too. It was the beating of the old man's heart. It increased
my fury, as the beating of a drum stimulates the soldier into courage.
But
even yet I refrained and kept still. I scarcely breathed. I held the lantern
motionless. I tried how steadily I could maintain the ray upon the eve.
Meantime the hellish tattoo of the heart increased. It grew quicker and
quicker, and louder and louder every instant. The old man's terror must
have been extreme! It grew louder, I say, louder every moment! --do you
mark me well I have told you that I am nervous: so I am. And now at the
dead hour of the night, amid the dreadful silence of that old house, so
strange a noise as this excited me to uncontrollable terror. Yet, for
some minutes longer I refrained and stood still. But the beating grew
louder, louder! I thought the heart must burst. And now a new anxiety
seized me --the sound would be heard by a neighbour! The old man's hour
had come! With a loud yell, I threw open the lantern and leaped into the
room. He shrieked once --once only. In an instant I dragged him to the
floor, and pulled the heavy bed over him. I then smiled gaily, to find
the deed so far done. But, for many minutes, the heart beat on with a
muffled sound. This, however, did not vex me; it would not be heard through
the wall. At length it ceased. The old man was dead. I removed the bed
and examined the corpse. Yes, he was stone, stone dead. I placed my hand
upon the heart and held it there many minutes. There was no pulsation.
He was stone dead. His eve would trouble me no more.
If
still you think me mad, you will think so no longer when I describe the
wise precautions I took for the concealment of the body. The night waned,
and I worked hastily, but in silence. First of all I dismembered the corpse.
I cut off the head and the arms and the legs. I then took up three planks
from the flooring of the chamber, and deposited all between the scantlings.
I then replaced the boards so cleverly, so cunningly, that no human eye
--not even his --could have detected any thing wrong. There was nothing
to wash out --no stain of any kind --no blood-spot whatever. I had been
too wary for that. A tub had caught all --ha! ha! When I had made an end
of these labors, it was four o'clock --still dark as midnight. As the
bell sounded the hour, there came a knocking at the street door. I went
down to open it with a light heart, --for what had I now to fear? There
entered three men, who introduced themselves, with perfect suavity, as
officers of the police. A shriek had been heard by a neighbour during
the night; suspicion of foul play had been aroused; information had been
lodged at the police office, and they (the officers) had been deputed
to search the premises. I smiled, --for what had I to fear? I bade the
gentlemen welcome. The shriek, I said, was my own in a dream. The old
man, I mentioned, was absent in the country. I took my visitors all over
the house. I bade them search --search well. I led them, at length, to
his chamber. I showed them his treasures, secure, undisturbed. In the
enthusiasm of my confidence, I brought chairs into the room, and desired
them here to rest from their fatigues, while I myself, in the wild audacity
of my perfect triumph, placed my own seat upon the very spot beneath which
reposed the corpse of the victim.
The
officers were satisfied. My manner had convinced them. I was singularly
at ease. They sat, and while I answered cheerily, they chatted of familiar
things. But, ere long, I felt myself getting pale and wished them gone.
My head ached, and I fancied a ringing in my ears: but still they sat
and still chatted. The ringing became more distinct: --It continued and
became more distinct: I talked more freely to get rid of the feeling:
but it continued and gained definiteness --until, at length, I found that
the noise was not within my ears. No doubt I now grew very pale; --but
I talked more fluently, and with a heightened voice. Yet the sound increased
--and what could I do? It was a low, dull, quick sound --much such a sound
as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I gasped for breath --and yet
the officers heard it not. I talked more quickly --more vehemently; but
the noise steadily increased. I arose and argued about trifles, in a high
key and with violent gesticulations; but the noise steadily increased.
Why would they not be gone? I paced the floor to and fro with heavy strides,
as if excited to fury by the observations of the men --but the noise steadily
increased. Oh God! what could I do? I foamed --I raved --I swore! I swung
the chair upon which I had been sitting, and grated it upon the boards,
but the noise arose over all and continually increased. It grew louder
--louder --louder! And still the men chatted pleasantly, and smiled. Was
it possible they heard not? Almighty God! --no, no! They heard! --they
suspected! --they knew! --they were making a mockery of my horror!-this
I thought, and this I think. But anything was better than this agony!
Anything was more tolerable than this derision! I could bear those hypocritical
smiles no longer! I felt that I must scream or die! and now --again! --hark!
louder! louder! louder! louder!
"Villains!"
I shrieked, "dissemble no more! I admit the deed! --tear up the planks!
here, here! --It is the beating of his hideous heart!"
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